Day 18: He confides in us as we Listen

The blankets were warm, and the voices of the nurses chatting in the background were setting me to a place of sleepiness that I had not expected, there in the room of prepping for the biopsy.

And then as the Doctor began the procedure, and I felt the needle pricks, my mind was suddenly aware of the combination of songs playing in the recesses of my memory:

a strange blending of the hospital's Muzak version of

"It never rains in Southern California"

and

"Lord Let your Glory Fall."

Pricking and prodding, and the needle going in and out,

but my mind was strangely soothed 

by this combination of songs

in my heart.

It was a simple procedure, as far as the many other

possibilities for testings

that are sometimes required:

a "fine needle aspiration"

to send specimens off to the pathology lab.

But of course, my own weariness over the days

of adding in more issues

had become the driving force in my thoughts

as I had prepared for this place.

So, when those two songs brought a comfort to my 

heart,

I wanted to know, and I was stirred to

LISTEN,

to see if God meant something through it all.

From a song that is usually meant to convey a sadness,

"It never rains in Southern California, but girl don't 

they warn 'ya,

it pours, man it pours"

about the squandered dreams of a would-be

actor in his wasted days in Hollywood,

to a song that expresses the affirmations

of a people waiting to see the Glory of God

come upon them, as they praised Him:

"You are good, You are good,

and your love endures always."

Could it be that God was shifting my perspective

for me,

as I lay on that hospital bed,

bringing His Love to me there,

in spite of my weariness?

Because, the weight of the sad song had shifted

for me:

"It pours, man it pours,"

took on a different meaning for me,

as I felt the Goodness of God

pouring over me right there.

I have so often struggled and put myself through

striving,

trying to change my own perspective.

And, yes, assuredly, there are times 

when God does clearly say that 

we must change our perspective.

But what about those times,

when weariness overtakes us?

How can we change our hearts

when we have no strength for the changing?

I heard Him calling me to LISTEN.

I HEARD HIS VOICE

THE ONE WHO HOLDS THE STRENGTH I DO NOT HAVE.

 

Psalm 25:14-15New  (NIV)  The Lord confides in those who fear him; he makes his covenant known to them. My eyes are ever on the Lord, for only he will release my feet from the snare.

 

It is in the looking up to HIM, 
the God that I reverence,
that I acknowledge my own weakness,
my inability to release myself from the snare
where my feet have fallen.

Oh! But it is there that He says He will 
CONFIDE IN ME.
He speaks,
He tells me of His covenant of Love,
HE POURS HIS LOVE ON ME.


Are you feeling weak today?
Are your feet caught in a snare of entanglement?
He wants to confide in you,
to pour out His love on you,
when you look up and listen.



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